♥ Friday, July 10, 2009
我对我自己感到很失望。
年中考试不理想，真是烂透了。
还有，一些小事一直闷在心里。
我真的不知道为什么会这样。
有可能是我的“低潮”吧。
可是总觉得这次的感觉和以往不同。
从始到终，我一直没被受到肯定。
听了---的消息后，真觉得很失望。
我想游泳，像一条鱼一样，无忧无虑的在水里游。
真希望烦恼赶快消失。。。
Love, Allicia 7/10/2009 11:05:00 PM
♥ Thursday, July 09, 2009
今天心情糟透了。
已经有一段时间没唱歌了。
今天早上表演让我回想起合唱团的时光。
虽然，不是每件事都是美丽的，但让我找回了归属感。
刚刚拉完大提琴，却拉的不起劲。
有可能是压力把，要准备即将的小“演奏会”。
老师也未免太突然了吧。
好难想象会是怎样。。。
我喜欢美妙的交响乐曲。
莫扎特的交响乐曲珍是美得无法形容。
Love, Allicia 7/09/2009 10:34:00 PM
♥ Wednesday, July 08, 2009
我真的很累。今天晚上才刚忙完合唱团的面试活动。
心里总觉得有种怪怪的感觉，不吐不快。
还记得去年，我就坐在那张位子，面对着十多双眼睛。
老师们或师兄师姐们的问题就好比如飞箭似。
经过了几轮的面试，问了几百个问题，突然想起了一件事。
好吧，不算是一件事，可算是一种问题。
音乐对我来说。。。是什么呢？
想了一会儿，我认为音乐对我来说，是家人。
它好比如我的家人一样，陪伴着我一起成长，一起经历过风风雨雨。
在我五岁时，它像是陌生人一样。
小学时，曾恨过它，对他觉得厌倦，不耐烦。
应为它的出现使我的生活变得更加有“压力”。
每天面对着它，却根本不了解，也不想多认识它。
慢慢地，见识了它的美。
不管我遇到任何挫折，他都会一直在那陪伴着我。
它，是个很好的聆听者，是个很好的朋友，是个我可以靠终生。
在我伤心事，他能体谅我的心情。
忧伤的旋律慢慢的安抚我的心情。
在我高兴时，他能和我一起分享快乐。
快而轻的节奏让我飞上青天。
始终，它没抛弃过我。
我对它，日久生情。
相信这世界上没人能取代，或超越它在我心中的地位。
为了它，我可以赴汤蹈火。
为了它，我可改变年我命运。
为了它，我可远离背景。
它，是我的影子，默默地跟随着我。
它，不需要任何赞美。
它，让我了解爱的意义。
它，让我享受我的人生。
它，帮我认识了很多知己。
我不能想象如果它没踏入我的世界。
有了它，生活才变得更有意义，更充实。
Love, Allicia 7/08/2009 11:29:00 PM
♥ Monday, July 06, 2009
I was listening to the SYF pieces on Ipod last night. Goodness, it gave me shivers and i dun know, a surge of blood coursing through your blood stream?! I really miss the times we sang hard, got scolded, at the down end and everything. I miss the feeling of us singing together, and the feeling on stage. I like the music, the people, the stage, the lightings, and the audience. It makes my heart warm knowing that the audience can feel our love from the stage.
I'm missing the whole experience.
Love, Allicia 7/06/2009 03:28:00 PM
♥ Saturday, July 04, 2009
I'm glad I went for the seminar today. I'm really confused, hopefully what I wanted initially stays on with me. I'm still keeping my choices open.
God please direct me.
Love, Allicia 7/04/2009 11:12:00 PM
♥ Thursday, July 02, 2009
Im glad that the 3 horrible days are over. Goodness, Sunday night nearly drive me mad, trying to cramp math and gp. Monday night was even worse. Tons and bio notes to cram into my brain and forget to study econs. Chem was_____. I dunno, I conked out at the very first 1 mark question. And i skipped tons of pages. Bad bad bad.
Before I slept last night, God's love suddenly came into my mind. I rmbered how terrible I felt on sunday, feeling so despair, stress, unloved and everything, and nothing that I read went into my mind. I asked Him to just guide me through and show me what to read. So i glanced upon this essay question, something way different from my usual essay topic and style. To be very honest, that was the only essay that I read and paid attention to, not even the packages. Whe I flipped the question paper, goodness, there was a similar question. Imagine what would have happened to my gp grades if I hadnt chanced upon the article. Praise God!
I'm so thankful to the Lord for everything. Now that the papers are done, I leave it unto Him. It was heartwarming to know that God was me all the way, running this race with me. I wouldnt had been able to make it through without His help. Despite the poor language and mediocre writing style, I'm really thankful. Thankful for Daddy God, my understanding parents, family and friends.
Oh man, this is sounding like some farewell letter.In any case, the new escalator at Orchard Central is fabulous(: I had a great night with joce, clar, kennai, and eugene.
I need to pack up my notes.
Love, Allicia 7/02/2009 01:07:00 PM
♥ Thursday, June 25, 2009
I woke up pretty early today and dragged myself for cello. Oh well, there was only a violin and another piano student. The rooms werent sound proof. Guess what, the Aunt outside could hear my screaming during lesson. Goodness.
Oh well, I cant believe one month holidays are going to pass soon. I guess nobody can. Im really left with alot of revision. I cant believe that my progress is so slow recently. I never felt so unprepared before. This is bad. I wonder if its because I know God will handle everything for me, thats why im feeling so relax. Im trusting everything onto him, and for his wisdom and strength to study.
I dun care what people will say,I wont turn back and go their way.Dont matter what may come my way,Its you Im following today.Coz, I'm running after you. Love you, Daddy God.
Love, Allicia 6/25/2009 05:26:00 PM
